Back to School!!!

It's always a feeling of telling me to go back and study.
But somehow, I want to avoid the feelings of having doubts when there is an option.

I know I still stand a chance to change my mind and go back to work. I can climb myself up somewhere. But I wanted to take my degree. It's a strange feelings that even I'm alone doing this all by myself.

After a few days class on my first week, I know this is not gonna be a piece of cake. But i wanna get over it. I need to focus and stay alert, Lots of them made it, Why Can't I?

It's a brand new path, a big decision, an interchange. Please give me confident and support to Go Through.

A little bit updates: you are important to me, but i won't let you affect me.

胃痛

今天，我又胃痛了。。。。

突然回想起，这个病也算是纪念一段逝去的恋情（后遗症）。
说着说着，都已经跟了我六七年了吧！
绝食是很多人都做过的蠢事吧。。

可是，就因为这样，我一个人晕倒在家的次数更是家常便饭。
我其实觉得自己还蛮能忍的，痛晕了醒来，不就是睡醒一样。
没什么大不了

日子久了，晕在学校 晕在公司 偶尔还会半夜挂急诊

其实还真的后悔当初，可是当时的我就真的什么也吃不下啊！！勉强不来。。。那几年可以说是我最累的。乐观的看，算是一种精彩。

几年过去，读书的读书，工作的工作。大家似乎也不想再想起那年的事。像是种禁忌
对现在的我来说 我只想好好地过

人家说人生就是背包旅行
背包要装的就是现在和未来 过去不开心的 我只想放着
因为背包不重 我才能走得更快更远




今天的感言：如果你真的那么爱他 你有没有关心它的世界？
如果你没有 那你是爱他 还是爱你自己

忘记了怎么去爱

过去，曾经以为爱一个人太简单了。就像婴儿会哭一样，与生俱来的感觉

不知道从什么时候开始，我忘记了怎么去爱，怎么去被爱
感觉应该是怎样的。不停的问别人 问自己 好像没什么结论

与此同时，我不懂去珍惜为我付出的人。
伤害和痛苦 却成了理所当然的结果

活在过去的感情阴影 是我不敢面对很久的事实
坚持留在他身边 为自己带来痛苦 也不后悔

终于， 我让他自由了 真正的离开 有我的世界。



现在的我 已经分不清 什么是爱了。忘了最初的感动 忘记了怎么在感情的路上 向前走

长辈就是如此贴心

二伯中风也有一段时间了，眼看他瘦了一半真的很不舍。
行动不方便，也说不出话。

现在比较能说点话了，可是很难才能听得懂。
大家似乎也不想打击他。。。听了很久，还是听不懂他想说什么。然后讲的和听的也难过了

我只是每次见他，就说你很快就好起来了。。。他却拍着自己的胸膛说他自己不用紧，你们要乖乖，要听话。

过年时，他开心到流泪。
因为大家都在，可是爸爸和几位兄弟姐妹却躲在一边难过。

心酸。。。心里不断提醒我，真的真的要保重自己的身体。健康体魄，得来不易。

work and no life

Working in a brand new and fast growing with minimal workforce.

I actually don't really understand, why im still there everyday to rushing in & out every single day.

First entered this company, i saw them! a very strong team with passion on work.

I never understand why they willing to work up to 12am or sometimes stay overnight in office.

After these months that i suffered through. i understand. How difficult it is, but your buddy were always there to support with great leaders and surround with friends.

My 1st month, work till 8 or 9 pm. I just don't know why, but im still here. In this extreme company. We all lost our life that we tried so hard to catch-up.

All the sacrifices that not sure whether there is worth. Fight and argue cause we are stress and we are all together most of the time.

This will really be some experience i never forget. Workaholic....

I wish all the bad will go away soon, Happy New year and let all of us Be Happy.